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(Also posted at Archive Of Our Own.)

Title: Through the Looking Glass

Author: Valancy

Fandom: Tanz der Vampire

Characters: Alfred, White Vampire

Rating: R-ish (Mature)

Warnings: I don't think there should be anything terribly shocking to people who are fans of the musical, but there's slash and sex. (I believe this works as an invitation rather than a warning to most of my readers.)

Summary: In this labyrinth, not even mirror images are what they seem.

Author's Notes: Sorry for the present tense, for anyone who doesn't like reading it - I normally never write in present tense, but somehow this story seemed to require it. Further notes at the end of the story.

Through the Looking Glass

Alfred runs in a maze of mirrors. He doesn't know for sure how he got there. One wrong turn, somewhere, and suddenly all is gone…

He sees frightening shapes in the glasses, and when he turns to look again, they're gone. Or he sees an exit but it's only another mirror. Somewhere, von Krolock's laughter echoes, but it's probably only in his memory. He is afraid.

Once he thinks he sees Sarah reflected in the glass. But when he turns to look the other way, to find her, he sees Herbert instead, advancing. He runs away, faster.

Finally there is a mirror where he only sees himself. He stops, breathes, relieved.
He must think. There must be a way to get out of this maze of horrors, get back into the regular rooms and corridors of the castle, or perhaps out into the yard. He must find the Professor, who was looking for the battlements, and they must save Sarah…

Then he realizes something. His mirror image is holding a book.

He looks into his own hands. They're empty.

He looks back up. His mirror image is looking at him curiously.

"Who are you?" he asks.

"I am you," says the mirror image.

"Mirror images don't talk."

"Of course they do. I am you, and you talk."

It looks like him - almost. There is something that's a little different, now that he looks more closely. The gaze in the blue eyes is a little sharper than he is used to seeing. The eyes have seen something he has not. There is an unfamiliar twist at the corner of the mouth, something stronger and steadier about the slender body. Or is it only the change brought by the castle? Maybe he looks like that and just hasn't seen himself? But are his eyes supposed to be blue?

"I am going crazy," he murmurs.

"Oh, no. But you do need to learn what's in this book."

"I need to get out of here."

"You need to know the book."

"What's in it?"

"The answers. The ones you are looking for."

If the book exists in the mirror, yet not in the reality, what is it? Vampires exist in reality but are not seen in the mirror. So the book must be something opposite to the vampires. He reaches for it, but meets cold glass.

"Not like that. You must come here."

Two Alfreds, one on this side of the mirror, one on the other. Are they the same? If they are not, which one of them is real? Or are they both? His head swims, he remembers the Professor's dry voice reading out pages from a book, notes complete with references, he doesn't remember if it was Alibori's or Van Helsing's or Abronsius's book, but he remembers words about souls and shadows and mirrors, speculations about worlds here and beyond. He couldn't understand it then, and he doesn't understand what all this means now. He looks into his mirror image's eyes and realizes it doesn't matter. It's not what this is about. Not relevant, the Professor would say. Not here.

"But I must save Sarah," he still protests.

"I know. But you must come here. It's the only way."

"Can you show me the way out?"

"I can. And many other things that you need to know. It's the only way you can get out of here. It's the only way you can find Sarah. It's what you both need."

He still watches his mirror image, afraid. What if this is another one of the Count's tricks and spells?

"I know you're scared. But you'll never find your way out of here alone. You need me, and you must come to me for help." When he is silent, the mirror image continues: "I know you're afraid, but look at me, I am you."

He looks, and he knows it's him. Different, but him.

"I am you. Who else could you trust, if not yourself?"

"You know, I don't tend to trust myself."

His mirror image smiles, knowing. "That's true. But you must, for once. How else will you be able to save Sarah?"

It is true.

"And you cannot trust anyone else. Who would you trust? The Professor? You know already that he doesn't understand what it's all about."

Alfred bows his head. He knows.

"And Sarah? She's enamored of the Count and his promises. The Count wants to trick you for his own purposes. All you've got is me. All either of us has is each other."

"If I only have myself to trust, then it's really frightening," Alfred whispers.

"I know." He sees in the mirror image's eyes that he understands. "But I know more than you do. And I have the book." The mirror image holds out the book.

He takes a deep breath and reaches with his hand again, but it meets the cold glass once more. "What do I have to do?"

A smile flickers in the mirror image's eyes as he says: "Kiss me."

"What?" He takes a step back, reeling.

"Come on. It's just me. I'm you. You have to kiss me. It's the only thing that breaks the spell of the mirror and gets you on this side." When he still doesn't move, the mirror image cocks his head to the side and smiles a little more, warmly, and says: "It's just kissing your reflection. There's nothing strange about it. I bet Sarah does it all the time."

"I don't. And I love Sarah."

"Loving yourself is the first step to loving another," says the mirror image somberly, and waits. "What are you afraid of?"

Alfred could try to answer, but it occurs to him that if the mirror image is him, it knows all his answers already. So he can save himself the pain of acknowledging what he doesn't want to.
Instead, he decides to trust and be fearless for once. He leans ahead and presses his lips against his mirror image's. And instead of cold glass, his lips meet warm, real human lips which respond to the touch of his own, first gently, then with increasing enthusiasm, and he is swept away by the confusing yet sweet sensations that arise all over his body and make his heart beat in agitation. Arms, stronger than he imagined, encircle his waist and pull him close, and he feels himself pass an invisible border as he follows their lead. There is a full real human body against him, he feels warmth and strength, and his head spins a little as the lips on his own exert a stronger pressure. And then the kiss ends and he pulls back, confused and out of breath, and watches the face in front of him, real and unreal, inexplicably beautiful yet almost like his own, and realizes he has just had his first kiss, not with the lovely Sarah but with someone who is almost like him, and still not him.

The mirror image looks into his eyes and smiles. "There. That was good, wasn't it?"

"Yes," he breathes before he has time to stop himself. The mirror image's smile deepens, and Alfred feels himself blush. The dream image extends his hand towards Alfred's face. Before realizing it, Alfred closes his eyes, and feels the hand softly stroking his face. A real, human hand. Slender and gentle. It traces the contours of his face and caresses his skin more delicately than Sarah's teasing sponge did in that reality so long ago.

"You are real," whispers the mirror image. It makes no sense, Alfred is the one who has just discovered that his mirror image has become real. He opens his eyes and looks straight into the mirror image's. They're not his eyes. There is a different gaze in them, more knowing. Less innocent. Still familiar, but…

"You are not me," he says.

"I am."

"You are not. You are… there. I am here. We can't both be me when you touch me and…" he blushes before he dares to say anything else. "And you are too strong", he goes on. "You are more confident than me and you know things."

"I do," whispers the mirror image. "But they're the things you want to know." A hand caresses his chin ever so slightly, temptingly. "Didn't you pray that God would make you stronger than you are? Braver than you are?"

"And you happened?"

The mirror image leans so close that Alfred can feel his breath on his face. "You can only be strong and brave if you know yourself." And then Alfred feels lips on his own again, warm and alive and touching him so sweetly he didn't know anything could feel that way, it's like when he sees Sarah or thinks about her or… An arm holds him by the waist now, and he discovers his own lips parting slightly to let the kiss in, responding with tentative longing and curiosity. When the mirror image pulls back, Alfred gasps, realizing what has happened. Again.

"What was that?" he asks. The mirror image looks into his eyes, smiling, eyes sparkling with something that makes Alfred's stomach tingle.

"To know." The whisper dies away as the mirror image's lips meet his for the third time. And as Alfred responds more readily and eagerly than before, and as the kiss becomes deeper and more consuming than before, he feels that he is lost already, or is he found? There's a tender hand stroking the back of his neck now, and he presses firmly against a body that is so like his, yet feels different, tantalizingly strong and seductive.

"But I have to find Sarah," he protests when the kiss ends. "I don't have time for this. I…" Another kiss silences him, and he doesn't struggle against it.

"There is no time," whispers the mirror image. "None that matters. Just surrender yourself…"

"To what?"

"To what you've always longed for."

"But I long for Sarah."

The mirror image looks at him, a sharp and knowing look in his eyes, smiles a mysterious smile that makes Alfred realize the other knows much more than he does, and suddenly he realizes.
"It was you," he breathes. "When I dreamed, we were one."

The mirror image - the dream - circles behind him, entwining his arms around Alfred's chest, pressing his head upon Alfred's shoulder. "Yes." Alfred realizes that the other hasn't been holding the book for a while. He wonders where it is. And if it really says anything important. He suddenly doesn't know how anything can be more important than this.

"Then is this a dream?" he asks, his breath catching in his throat and making his voice disappear when the other's hands move just a little on his chest.

"I am real. You are real. I'm inside you and real, and outside you."

"You are not me."

"I am and am not. It doesn't matter. What matters is…" The dream drops a kiss on the back of his neck, and Alfred gasps. "…this. Doesn't that feel good?"

Alfred swallows and has to nod. The other's lips press upon his skin again, caressing from atop his collar right up to the roots of his hair, and back again. Alfred shivers, feels a forbidden yet pleasant heat run through his body, and can only lean back to that strong embrace and gentle caress.

"You need to learn," whispers the mirror image. "I need to learn. That's our only way. To survive. The only way that Sarah can still be convinced to hear us instead of him."
"Where is the book? You said I need to have the book."

"We can look at the book in a moment. The book doesn't really matter. I've read it, I know it. I must teach you." He puts one hand on Alfred's cheek, caressing, and turns Alfred's head so that he can reach his lips. Another gentle kiss follows. "Your mouth tastes so good. I like it. Do you like it when I kiss you?"

"Yes," Alfred whispers. "But this… shouldn't… It can't…"

"Better than kissing a sponge, isn't it?" the mirror image interrupts, a touch of mischievousness in his voice.

Alfred blushes, not only from the movement of the hand on his body. "How did you…" Then he stops. Of course the other knows, if he truly is him. He has been there all along when Alfred was shut up in his room in the inn, shyly lifting Sarah's sponge to his lips, to imagine her, and to know better how to kiss her if she gave him an opportunity. And yet, it can't be that the other really is him, because why is he there? But the way the mirror image kisses him again just now makes his brain stop all the thinking and protesting.

"I like it," he admits when his lips are free again. "But…" His mind seems powerless to form words to its protests, and he is out of breath.

"There are more things than you have dreamed of," the mirror image whispers, and his hands drop down on Alfred's chest again, reaching underneath his coat to the thin white shirt, running up and down to feel the skin underneath the cloth. Alfred feels more hot shivers coursing through him, he feels a burning underneath his shirt and further down below.

"This is wrong," he whispers.


"Because…" His mind races through the various reasons and finds all of them failing. It doesn't help that the other is opening one of his shirt buttons, then another, and Alfred now feels the caress of his fingers on the skin of his chest.

The other speaks into his ear. "One of the first things we have to learn is that not everything is wrong that we've been taught. It feels good, doesn't it? You like it?"

"Yes." He can't lie.

"I like it, too. And does it harm anyone?"


"Then why would it be wrong?" The hands have reached down to his stomach, caressing up and down painfully slowly, just teasing him, making him wait until they go further…

"Oh -" It's more a gasp than a word that comes out when the hands roam down onto his trousers and brush the part of him that nobody has touched yet, where even his own hands only venture when he is washing himself, and in the darkest parts of blushing night where nobody sees him and only shy fantasies keep him company… The hands now rest on his thighs, but the burning remains.

He is breathing hard. "You… shouldn't…"

"What?" The question sounds so innocent, as if the other really doesn't think there is anything wrong… Is there? Alfred isn't sure. Should there be? The hands on his thighs make little circling movements. Deliciously tingling sensations ripple through him, making his breath and pulse quicken.

"It's not right to… touch yourself…" he stammers stupidly.

The other laughs softly. "Now, you don't believe in that, do you?"

No, he doesn't really, or he has stopped caring when he can enjoy these sensations, and when the other strokes him again, he just dips his head back and sighs.

"Don't you want to learn?" whispers the other. "I do…"

"But you know already." In all this burning of desire, he suddenly remembers.

There is silence, then a quiet chuckle. "You could say that. But I want to learn more. With somebody who is sweet and kind and gentle… Like you." The hands brush there again, and Alfred gasps and sighs more loudly. "If you don't learn from me, it will be worse. Think of Herbert. He won't ask if you want it, and he'll take you." Hands stroke up and down his thighs and hips, and Alfred senses how very close to him the other is. Lips kiss the back of his neck, irresistible. "I won't make you do anything you don't want."

There is no need to, Alfred wants this touch so much already, and it's true, here he can at least feel safe, he knows his other self won't hurt him, knows what he wants and secretly dreams of… Is his secret dream. He yields to yet another kiss, and when the hands venture boldly down to the forbidden territories again, he moans into the mouth pressed against his own, and presses his hips against the touch. All of him burns with it. As the other continues with the touching and the kissing, Alfred lifts one hand to stroke the other's hair and the back of his neck, and enjoys it when he gets happy sighs and moans as a reply.

He imagines what it would be like if Sarah touched him like this, or if he had her at his arms like this and could run his hand over her soft and delicate body and hear her sigh and moan like he sighs and moans now… Or maybe it's the mirror image telling him to imagine that, he doesn't know anymore what are his thoughts and fantasies, what the other's. It doesn't matter. They are the same, aren't they? Or close enough.

He turns, facing the other and pressing tightly against his body to feel. Their mouths meet again, and he gives in to the surges of desire arising from the kiss, the closeness. His coat falls on the ground behind them. And then the mirror image bends down to his neck. Alfred allows those tinglingly sweet kisses, allows the other to caress his soft skin more boldly with his tongue, allows removing his bowtie to expose more skin to the other's mouth… Then, as lips and tongue caress the base of his throat, fanning the flames of desire, he remembers more.
"He bit you," he whispers. "You are one of them."

"He bit you," replies the mirror image. "And are you one of them?" Alfred doesn't know anymore, he thinks he isn't but he can't be sure of anything anymore, and he hears how hot and ragged the other's breath is and how eagerly his hands explore… Is it because of desire for his body, or for a deeper, more lethal thirst for his blood? Searching hands send another surge of desire at the same time as teeth pressing against his neck make him fear. He suddenly wonders if there's a reason why Sarah doesn't want to leave the castle.

He isn't sure if the teeth are sharper than they should be, but they aren't biting through the skin, only pressing softly onto it, and he finds himself holding more tightly onto the other though he should try to escape. But where to? He is in a mirror. He can't see anything except the two of them.

"Don't be afraid," whispers the mirror image. "I wouldn't do anything to you that you wouldn't want."

"But if you think you're me, how can I know what you think I wouldn't want?"

"If you can't trust yourself, then whom?"

That's such an absurd question that Alfred lets himself be laid on the ground and allows the other to straddle him and start undoing his braces, then continue undoing the buttons of his shirt. Alfred discovers that the mirror image's bowtie and braces are also missing now, and when Alfred is shirtless, so is the mirror image, though Alfred doesn't remember undressing him. The bareness looks enticing, he reaches up and strokes that skin, knowing that he isn't touching himself, he is not that strong, not that alluring. But he doesn't care anymore, just touching means so much, and when the other shifts his position on Alfred's hips, the pressure shoots a wave of heat through him that burns objections away. Alfred feels hand stroke his chest, mirroring the movements of his own, exploring boldly. He imagines what it would be like if Sarah touched him like this. Then he doesn't want to imagine anything at all. He just wants to feel.

The mirror image lays down on him, Alfred feels bare skin against his own, mouth on his mouth, then mouth on his neck, making him arch back his head and moan. The other seems to know - of course he does - exactly what are the sensitive spots on his skin, what makes him want and desire so much it's almost maddening. Alfred wonders how the other knows it so well when even he doesn't know it. But he doesn't care. He wants to surrender to this pleasure.

"We were one," whispers the mirror image. "We were meant to be one. I will make us one." Their hips are pressed together in a way that makes Alfred writhe in pleasure, and the other responds by pinning down his wrists and pressing harder on his hips. Alfred gasps.

He lets his arms twine around the other's back and search the skin there, go further down and see what kind of touching makes the other twist his hips even more deliciously, and bite his teeth just a little against Alfred's skin, not painfully, only sweetly. He feels that warm, strong, slender body underneath his hands and revels. It is his dream, so it's as beautiful as his dreams, as beautiful even as Sarah… For she is a dream, too, isn't she? So he isn't even untrue to her by surrendering to what is also his dream, right? And then the other moves his hips just so, and Alfred isn't even thinking anymore, just wanting.

When the mirror image's mouth is exploring his chest, Alfred suddenly asks: "What did it feel like?"

"What?" The other isn't concerned by anything except him, it seems, and it's intoxicating. Alfred even regrets asking. He doesn't want the other to think about anything but him. How sweet it is that for once, someone thinks only about him…

But he asked, so he must continue. "When he bit you." After a quiet pause he adds: "When he… took you."

"You already know," whispers the other, and sits up again to straddle him. First Alfred fears he has made the other angry, but then he begins to undo Alfred's trousers, and it feels very nice the way his hands sometimes brush there.

"I don't remember much," he says in between heavy breaths. "Just that it was… terrifying, and yet…"

"And yet. " The other pauses to lean back and kiss him on the mouth again. He likes it. He hopes there will be still much more kissing. "And yet, when it happened, it was the most sublime thing. Nothing but giving yourself, knowing there was no alternative… It's sweeter when there's no alternative, isn't it? Because then you're never truly giving up."

"That's a twisted way to think it."

"Is it?"

"It… doesn't make sense."

"No, here you don't need to make sense." The mirror image chuckles, and looks at him with a deliciously wicked light in his eyes. "Isn't that nice?"

Alfred has to admit that it is. He's tired of the Professor always telling him to be logical and make sense when there's so much else to the world than logic and sense. And he doesn't want to think about the Professor and logic when he's in a situation like this, so he closes his eyes and enjoys instead.

"I know it's strange," says the other tenderly. "That's why you're getting it when you want it." The mirror image caresses him, and Alfred moans. "You want that, don't you?"
"Yes," Alfred whispers. "I want it… I want you… very much."

"That's good, my sweet." And suddenly both of them are naked, and the other presses down on him again and kisses him so fully on the mouth, and Alfred has never felt another's bare body on himself and it feels so strange and hot and intoxicating, he is afraid and curious and full of wanting. He forgets to even notice that when the other kisses his throat again, the teeth pressing against his delicate skin are sharper than before.

"We were made to be one," whispers the mirror image again. "I will make us one again."
And he feels the other's touch, tempting and stroking him. He can't think anymore, he is overcome by the lovely sensations of pleasure rising and pulsing through him. His own hands wander on the other's body, touching, wondering. Their mouths seek and find each other, his touch makes the other sigh with pleasure, the feel of the other's body and warmth makes him shudder. Every moment is exquisite, he lives for nothing but this, he thinks of nothing else, is nothing else.

The other speaks sweet words to him and eagerly guides him to greater and greater wonders, and finally he cries out as the pleasure builds up to a moment of blinding whiteness, purity of feeling overtakes him and he has never felt anything so sweet before, it makes him feel life was worth it just to get to this one moment, that anything would be worth it, and he moans incoherent words as his body twists against the stronger body above him and pleasure shakes his foundations. He doesn't know how much more time passes before he rests there again, chest rising and falling rapidly with his heated breath, lovely glow diffusing all over him, all of his body and soul perfectly at peace, happy.

The other's mouth claims his once again, sweetly and softly. There is still hunger in it, Alfred remembers dazedly that he didn't yet bring the other to this point, that the other still wants. He kisses the other - his mirror, his dream - several times, trying to teach his inexpert lips how to caress the other so sweetly he should feel perfect bliss. The hands still roam his body, searching, he caresses the other incoherently and whispers sweet words that make no sense. He tries to mirror the other's touches that brought such great pleasure to him, but though the other enjoys, sighs and moans and moves against his touch, it seems to not be enough. And it is not so hard for the other to convince Alfred to yield, to gracefully part his legs and let the other in, to endure the piercing pain for the strange pleasure it brings. Alfred wonders fleetingly why the other wants this instead of what he was happy with when they're supposed to be the same, but it doesn't matter, he is happy to experience this, to feel so much, to be the source and receiver of so much pleasure. His body is scared and enthralled both as the other takes what he wants more skillfully than he ought to, so skillfully that Alfred doesn't know what is sweet and what painful anymore, all blends together in him and there is nothing more beautiful than this giving in, this receiving, this passion which truly makes them one.

His mirror image cries out finally, a cry of joy and pleasure and triumph which rings throughout the labyrinth, and he thrusts even deeper into Alfred, as though claiming all the satisfaction in the world from him. And then his movements calm down. Alfred holds his body against his own, sighs with perfect contentment to feel that skin against his, to caress the other as he sinks down and kisses his mouth with a lazy, sated lust.

"Do you feel it? Now every wall has been broken, now we are one," whispers the mirror image in his ear, and Alfred nods. He sees the forgotten book lying down next to them, but the mirror image turns his head back so they face each other. "You don't need it anymore. Now you know."

"Thank you," Alfred mutters and kisses him many times. He feels unbelievably happy and complete.
And truly they are so much one that when the mirror image's fangs sink into his neck, he doesn't even cry out. He feels the sudden pain and the terrifying pleasure, and the delicious taste of blood as the other drinks his fill from him, sucking him into darkness until he can see no more, feel no more, only float and disappear.


When Alfred wakes up again, he doesn't know who he is.

Author's Notes: Didn't feel like explaining too much about the story in the beginning, before anyone's read it. So. I've always been fascinated by Carpe noctem and what it tells us about Alfred's hidden inner life, also hidden from himself. Lately I've felt I'd like to write a fic about the White Vampire, ie. Dream Alfred. Suddenly I got it into my head that I'd like to write a story where Alfred meets him, and this is what came out.

I partly blame Gernot Romic, the awesome Vienna White Vampire, who became a very living character in my head as soon as I watched a video with him. So the White Vampire in this is totally him, at least in my mind, though of course you can imagine someone else as well. I'm not basing the Alfred clearly on any one actor - at first I thought I'd use Sebastian Smulders's version because him I'd seen on the same DVD as Gernot, but after writing I think he's more of a mixture of Tibor Héger and Gyuri Mihálka's interpretations.


( 8 comments — Leave a comment )
Feb. 18th, 2011 07:00 am (UTC)
I figure you must somehow be at least a little psychic because I just finished my last midterm today and was kind of swimming through the collection of Tanz der Vampire stories I've saved online to get back into the fandom. And you know what? You never disappoint. I'll always love your piece on Alfred at the ball, but this fic is definitely a new favourite...

I think Cicero is the one that said, "Man is his own worst enemy", and you definitely captured that here with this piece. I actually remember how excited I was when you mentioned your plans for this fic because the idea was refreshing, and kind of scary, and altogether quite enthralling---and I'm glad to finally see it in the flesh. It really suits Alfred, who's constantly struggling with himself as he tries to work his way over all the other obstacles in his path, and it really points out the little infinity loop he's trapped himself in as he tries to escape all the big, mean, scary vampires trying to show him how fun it is to be bad. He kind of wants to be in on all the fun, but he's just to terrified of the unknown.

I also really enjoyed how the White Vampire constantly pointed out the fact that they were one in the same, even though there's such a sharp contrast between the two of them at the very end. Alfred finds bliss with the very basics of their fumblings, but white!Alfred has to take him completely in order to satisfy himself. It was a nice way to finish it off. I felt it left the reader with a little something to chew on, you know? Food for thought.

Overall, bravissima, darling! I truly enjoyed it, and I hope to see more from you in the future...even though it would be hypocritical of me to beg when I know I've been slacking on my fiction myself. Even so, I'll be delighted with anything you post! Your work always manages to make me smile.

Feb. 18th, 2011 08:51 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for your thoughtful feedback! I'm so happy you liked it! It's one of my own personal favourites of the fics I've written, but I don't know how many people will be interested in the concept, so I'm really glad the execution of it pleased you. It was fascinating exploring Alfred's character like this, and wondering how he and is dream/vampire self would interact.

The main reason why I took this long to finish it, actually, was that I wasn't sure how the sex scene should go. I wrote it like this first, but then I ended up writing another version as well, though it didn't end up being the one I posted. On the one hand I don't see Alfred as someone who would feel a need to dominate sexually, but it was hard to figure out how White Vampire would go about it, because he's both essentially Alfred, and then something quite different from human Alfred. I had another version, in which the sex was different (non-penetrative, basically), and it was hard deciding which one was more in character for the White. I ended up choosing this version, because the story seemed to require this, but if you're interested to read the other version, I can send it to you as well. It would be interesting to know others' opinions on which version works better. In both versions the White goes for the blood in the end, though, it's just the sex that's different.
Feb. 19th, 2011 02:16 am (UTC)
Argh, I'm familiar with the whole "write, delete, re-write, delete again, re-write..." conundrum that plagues the mind when you're just not feeling the love. I'm glad you kept your second version though, because, hell yeah, I'd like to read it (pretty pretty pretty please, with a cherry on top...?)! It'd be like striking gold. ;)

Oh, and before I forget----much love for the present tense. I agree with you on fact that it's not an easy thing to work with (and can really kill a fic if the author doesn't quite know what they're doing) but I'm giving you straight 10s on that backflip. Perfectly executed, darling. I sincerely wept for joy.

Feb. 19th, 2011 07:44 am (UTC)
Sure, I'll send it to you, though I'm not guaranteeing it's anything amazing. :-D Can I have your e-mail address? You can PM it if you prefer not to post it in a public comment. :-)

Aww, thank you! It was the first time I wrote a story in present tense, and because I was unused to the technique, I first tried to write it in past tense, but it just didn't ring right. Because a past tense would seem to take a stand on whether this is actually happening or just a dream/spell/something, and I very consciously didn't want to take a stand on that but let it appear whatever it does to the reader. So present tense it was. I'm glad if it worked! It's partly thanks to your stories that I dared to try it at all, because previously I hadn't come across many stories where the present tense had felt appropriate and so I was suspicious of the technique.
Feb. 19th, 2011 11:46 pm (UTC)
I know what you mean. Sometimes the story calls for past tense and sometimes it calls for present, and I actually really enjoyed reading this in present tense (even though I usually prefer reading stories in the past tense---which is kind of hypocritical of me, seeing as I write in present, but I digress...). You've got the technique, woman! Feel free to wield it as you will. :)

And as for the email address, I'll send you a PM (to your spiegelsaal account, if that helps). I haven't ever gotten hate-mail/trolled before but I've been getting spammed lately on LJ. Too bad I'm not computer savvy or I'd have the problem fixed already. Lol.
Feb. 18th, 2011 06:26 pm (UTC)
I didn't have time to read the whole fic yet, but I really like that you used last year's prop mishap in it. That anti-vampiric book was so lol. :)
Feb. 19th, 2011 07:45 am (UTC)
*grins* I just couldn't resist! It seemed to fit there so nicely, and I love having little in-jokes in stories. :-D
Mar. 11th, 2012 04:22 pm (UTC)
This is the first White/Alfred (been looking for Black/Alfred in vain though *cries) story I've read and it sure made me want for more!
I love the way they are so different but still essentially the same, and how caring White is handling Alfred, always reassuring him and taking care of his needs first. This is exactly how Alfred came across in Für Sarah, willing to overcome his own fears to protect the ones he loves, being strong for them. Considering his naivety and and how easily frightened he is he actually acts quite brave going to the castle and crashing the ball to save a girl he's known for less than 24 hours.

And I really should take a look at that Gernot version!
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